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Mandy Lam Hui Yee
12 MAY 1991
Ngee Ann Poly,Business and Social Enterprise(BZSE) .
♥Spending time with friends,Singing,Shopping,Drama-ing,Eating.
♥Families & Friends.

I'm a independent & complicating person
I have different sides of me. Serious,Playful& Funny.
As long as u are nice to me I'll be nice & simple to you.
*LOVE ME FOR WHO I AM-
‎*LIFE Never Was Easy. Grow up, Accept it
♥I was enchanted to meet you♥

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New Phase

Tuesday, August 13, 2013 @ 12:45 AM

120813 11.45A.M

A new journey for Obp and a new phase for our story

Accompany him to Tekong and had a mini tour there , lunch tgt before we finally bid farewell.

No overwhelm emotions at that point of time as I clearly know none of this unnecessary emotional will change anything.

National Service, a compulsory journey for all Singaporeans, after years of defer due to studies

now it is really the time for him to serve the Nation, rather than hating it which I know might be unavoidable.

I really hope my dear obp will be able to adapt to the environment and even excel whenever possible,making the best out of it :)

With an extra week of confinement, i will only get to see him after 3 weeks on 30th Aug

i know no matter how Independent I'm (Or maybe used to be? Haha!)

I will definitely miss him more than I can imagine,

no one for me to whine and nag at whatever things i want to say

no one to scold for being too woodblock and slow,

no one to buy me food and nua tgt while watching movie at home.

However, I know this is just the beginning of the 1year 10mths journey,

there are still many more obstacles awaiting ahead of us in our different journeys

field camps, overseas training and many other more

For me, internship starting in less than a mth time

new stage of life, new challenges for me to overcome.

We might not be able to celebrate every single occasions tgt like we used to but I believe our rs will be strong enough to pull through this.

I want to make the best out of life, as for now will be my intern

and i really pray hard that bf will make the best of his life in Ns too.

With that, i think it really time for me to become the independent me again

and start on my exams revision before it is too late!

1 more week to the first paper :(

ILY My Dearest Obp xoxo!

A bad start for 2013

Saturday, January 05, 2013 @ 6:27 PM

First post for 2013, doubt anyone will read my blog anymore but still decided to write down how I am feeling right now since I'm not those who will really share it with my friends.

2nd day of the brand new year, spent my whole day at polyclinic and ttsh with sis and aunt
Ah ma admitted to hospital under A&E department
the place i hate and afraid the most even after 9 years
Those system which they claimed to be most efficient is making me feel really disgust every time i visited such places.
Luckily she is still conscious and able to talk to us all these
it is still heart-pain to see her in such state at this age
i clearly know people age ,and lots of health problems will appeared as the years goes by.
The house feel so weird without her nagging and screaming, hopefully nth serious will happen to her and she will be back home soon.
Ever since that night, when i closed my eyes, those scenario and flashback appeared in my mind
It has been years, and my life still continue although it really sucks at times
Though I'm alright but i know all these incidents do really have an impact on me
the perspective i have, the low confidence level i have for the future, and how negative i can get at times like these.
I dun wish to think this way and i know i should think positively to make my life a better one
but all these incidents that is happening every now and then restrict me to be optimistic.
Sometimes, I am really so tired of my life
i know there are people in the worst situation than me
but I dunno how should i feel right now...

hope

Wednesday, July 04, 2012 @ 10:25 PM

"Some people build up walls, not to keep people out but to see who cares enough to knock them down."

I'm losing hope in everything
family, relationship and studies and most of all in myself
Sometimes, I'm held back by my own extreme negative thinking
i wish everything will end now , maybe i should fall really sick and time out for a period of time
Not doing anything good and nth is going on smoothly for me during the past 6 mths of 2012
I know the world doesn't goes the way i want it to be
i know i should be strong enough to withstand and overcome all these shit
But sadly, I'm not strong enough anymore, on the verge of giving up every single thing now
though i do not have a choice but to force myself to get over it and bluff myself that everything will be fine soon?
Reality is cruel, and my life is tough,i have to live with it but I'm really tired of it.
i have to work hard in order to make a diff , but some things are just not within my control
i sucks at certain thing and no matter how hard i tried, the outcome is still the same.
I hate how weak, how negative I'm getting but i just can't help it..
Maybe I'm really better off alone.

HURTS

Tuesday, May 29, 2012 @ 12:41 AM

Has been a while since I last blogged, decided to type dwn my thoughts today in the midst of studying for Financial mgt test tml.

Something really serious happened few days ago,

though everything is over and things seem to be back to normal now

but the scenarios is still vividly stuck in my head.

Had a huge argument and fight with my aunt ,we really fight not in terms of verbally.

Everything began from a small yet sensitive issue or should said one of the issue which i care the most.

Came home from movie with bf to know that aunt throwing away my stuffs without even asking me

worst of all, the thing does not belong to me.

Firstly, i was already boiling as i hate ppl touching my stuff even my family though i do admit sometimes my things are in a mess.

Secondly, she did not ask me before throwing it straight down to the rubbish bin.

Thirdly, not admitting she was in the wrong which obviously she was even when i tried telling her nicely.

So in additional to all those stated above, both of us who are equally hot headed and stubborn had a big argument followed by fight.

couldn't control myself, temperature boiling and exploded ,

tears flowing dwn non stop while trying to talk to her.

Bf tried to stop and hold me back but guess I'm totally out of control at that pt of time.

From this we linked to many other topics, things that perhaps we have been trying so hard to keep it all within ourselves. Perhaps all along, there is sth wrong in the way we communicate with each other.

Perhaps we had already take thing as it is .Perhaps we are just too tired and busy with our own life that we think this is alright and nth will happen since we have been living like this for years.

Lack of communication, which i really hope we will improve on it as times goes by.

Cried throughout the entire night, my eyes, my head and heart hurts

can hardly open my eyes the next morning, swollen eyes and face

glad that it is over now and no next time pls...

Thankful for ah ma being understanding enough for that night, and my dearest bf who protected me and

perhaps he didn't know I saw him teared while i was crying.

There's a saying goes sth like this:

A guy should never let his girl cry and when the girl make the guy cry

this means she really means sth to him<3

I LOVE YOU OBP<3

MY 21ST:D

Thursday, May 17, 2012 @ 2:17 PM